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Sara poll on hobbies and special interests
Inspired by a conversation with @sadhappylady
One of the more tragic things about season 3 for me is the way Sara burns out on her passion for horses. Areas of special interest and/or hyperfixations are something that matters so much to AuDHD people like Sara.
In the first season we see how much Sara lights up around Rousseau, and how special that bond is. By the second season sheās fighting to keep him close by, or at least make sure he goes to a nice family. She melts down when heās sold. But by season 3ā¦ so much of that light is gone, and it makes all the post-s2 grief so much heavier. Itās not just that sheās lost an interest; it feels (to me as a viewer) like a piece of her whole self has been severed away.
I see some post-canon speculation that suggests Sara will get back into working with horses one dayāitās still a job she has in post-canon fics, for instance. For me, personally, these speculations can feel a little surprising and abrupt if not accompanied by some explanation of how Sara finds her way back to horses, and how interacting with horses looks different for her since she left Hillerska. Sometimes these speculations can even feel motivated by a desire to have Sara go back to her āsafeā early season 1 self. But Sara has had so much growth and evolution since season 1, and her interests are part of that. Even if she finds her way back to horses post-canon, why would it look exactly the same?
One thing I also wonder about is what hobbies Sara might pursue next, and what kinds of things could potentially become new special interests. We got all of eighteen episodes with Sara during a small slice of her teenage years. But thereās a whole world out there and a whole future ahead of her, and there could be more things she is interested in.
Anyway, Iāve created a poll about future hobbies for Sara.
Regardless of what you pick, feel free to reblog for reach and put your thoughts in the tags. I put pretty broad categories here so Iād love to hear peopleās more specific headcanons.
Have a lovely Tuesday!
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Random observation. I'm spending my weekends ritalinless and trying combinations of supplements that might reduce brain fog, just in case I ever have to go to a country where I won't have access to meds (also it's calming to know I have some sort of a backup plan. also it's just fun).
And L-theanine (300mg) + ginkgo extract (240 mg) + 2 shots of espresso (no idea about caffeine content) seem to work surprisingly well for me, while not working separately.
(theanine+caffeine and ginkgo separately have shown some effects on sustained attention in clinical trials)
Not ritalin level of effective, doesn't feel like I've suddenly been handed a neurotypical brain but it still feels very nice. Switching between tasks is easy and I can focus.
Now I know how did I manage to remain productive in Moscow, it was just permanent tea ceremony time back then. All the theanine.
(a note to self to give adhd to a tea ceremony master if I ever get to write one)
Also for non-adhd havers who like coffee too much: if you get jittery from coffee try theanine with your n-th cup, it reduces caffeine-induced anxiety.
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#ok finally making a post about meds#I've not ever tried taking medication before. I was sorta raised with that classic 'dont rely on meds you have to learn to manage without'#I mean I was also raised with the idea that therapy is stupid unless you have 'real' trauma. and also like idk.#can't stay home from school unless your temp is over 100 or you're throwing up. etc. very suck it up mindset#so I was just really nervous to start. also of course worried about losing myself or whatever I know that's a silly fear but#it's also a common fear for a reason!!! anyways#so I finally was like 'I need to do something' when I realized I was so anxious I couldnt even get myself to go outside alone#like I just don't want to do ANYTHING alone to a detrimental effect. and it was butting into my ability to do my work...#for various reasons. but then ALSO adhd has been a constant issue with my work as well!#it is SO hard to write and draw on a weekly pace like I am without being able to focus#my whole life I've had these terrible nightmares constantly and I've always woken up constantly in the night#sleep has always been terrible so I've always dreaded going to bed.. ESPECIALLy because it didnt even make me less tired#it was more something that I just did because I had to.#but going to bed was always terrible. there have been times I was too scared to go to sleep for weeks on end...#I've been mitigating this for years of course. and recently I've been taking melatonin which has been helping too.#but I've also always struggled to get up. because I've always been EXTREMELY exhausted#but also anxious of what the day might bring... idk.#anyways it has all hit a point that I was like okay. I am doing as many coping mechanisms as I can. the psych said they were good too#but... it just has never been enough. it's never been enough to make me not tired it's never been enough to make me not scared#so I finally talked to the doc about it. and she was like youve def got smth wrong basically. which yah I know.. but yknow#anyways so I started taking wellbutrin. and I am so frustrated now. because it's WORKING#that constant looming sense of dread is gone. I'm excited to get up. I'm excited to go to bed BECAUSE I'm excited to get up#I feel like for years I've been holding on to the idea that I have to get up because I have to put something good out into the world#and I've been clinging to knowing that if nothing else. I am able to help other people feel better.#but now for the first time in my life I'm like. free of it. I didnt even know it was possible... and I'm so sad how much I've lost out on#and so frustrated how my whole life I've been told to put up with it and push through it. and treated like a failure for it being too much.#and just. It has only been 2 weeks. but the lack of anxiety is SO noticeable I'm so...#I'll never miss it. the adhd is still pretty present but like whatever. I can manage that better.#and I'm just crying because of all this combined.#I just. I hope I get to finally be the best I can be now. for myself but also for you guys!
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Sitting here wishing my ADHD was more severe just so people could realise I actually have a problem-
#adhd#probably adhd#undiagnosed neurodivergent#undiagnosed adhd#stuff like this makes me doubt if i have adhd at all#i tried to explain how when i was doing my gcse preparations i would take a day to do an essay#āoh it takes us a whole weekā#NO THATS NOT WHAT I MEAN#I HAD A WEEK TO DO IT BUT I LEFT IT TO THE LAST DAY#ON THE LAST DAY I COULDNT PROCESS THE QUESTION#I KNEW WHAT IT WANTED. I KNEW WHAT I SHOULD WRITE. BUT I ALSO DIDNT#i love english. both language and literature#but it would take me hours to even work out what i was supposed to write unless it was under timed exam conditions#when it was timed the panic would put me into hyperdrive#but i only realised last night that maybe taking a full day to work out what to write on a simple essay might not be normal#but then people point out that this kinda thing is normal and i just. dont know.#do i have adhd or am i just giving myself excuses for being slow#or do i expect others to be so much faster and see myself as slow in comparison#im so sure i have adhd but i dont know either
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footnotes arent enough I need you to talk to me like im fucking Amelia Bedelia
#this isnāt about anything in particular btw. I just have to add a lot of memos when Iām doing things because some things are done a certain#way and it isnāt explained well in the instructions. like my mom has instructions on her baking recipes right#but when it says stuff like add dry ingredients to wet ingredients it also means you donāt dump it in one go you add it slowly by portion#this is probably why I find videos and demonstrations the most helpful when I learn something. like I almost always ask someone to show me#how they do it because there could be something they do thatās already second nature and wouldnāt really be considered in an explanation yk#I donāt think Iām an exception either. when the rice is done cooking I divide it into 4 quarters to bless it#but there are a million ways to divide rice and it makes me think that one persons way of doing it or not doing it all is just as valid#theres also technically no wrong way to divide rice afaik. this means either all ways of dividing rice is safe or valid until we find some#universally terrible way of dividing rice. until that happens nobody really thinks about specifying HOW you divide the rice#source: I have anxiety starting and doing things for the first time because I got way too many people yell at me NONONO WHAT ARE YOU DOING#THATS WRONG while Iām in the middle of doing the thing. I would rather have people think Iām either very stupid or overly specific#than go thru the panic inducing fear of āYOURE DOING THIS WRONG OMG WHY DIDNT YOU ASK AHEAD OF TIME THIS WILL BE FUCKED UP FOREVERā š§#nothing wrong if you donāt give something a second thought because youāre so used to it. but I can and will ask about it and I donāt think I#really should feel bad about it if I donāt know enough to dispute it. idk#the other way around I try to be as specific as possible and word things in a way that people who might not get where Iām coming from will#understand. but the problem with that is my explanations tend to be lengthy and I lose them either way šæ#Im. trying to work on that using examples and stuff because they seem to work the best#but if I could write everything down on a word doc and beam it into your melon that would save both of us time and embarassment#im rambling the short version is I have adhd#yapping
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Just finished reading the new chapter, ātwasĀ AWESOME! I didnāt expect you to use the show lore and mention Titanās life, since well scientifically Titan has no life.
Do all you auās include Titan having life? Iām interested to see what the Iris plans to do with Titan, now that he knows about his life. Earthās probably just floating around in the background just listening to the conversation, I wonder whatās his reaction?
Mercury finally knows whatās wrong with the Sun. Astrowife has a gun now, wonder if sheāll ever use it? It was a little shorter than your previous chapters, but was still a fun read. Great chapter like usual. <3
Thank u <3
I'm kinda wishy-washy on it? It was interesting idea I wanted to use for this AU specifically, and in my other fanfics I just don't acknowledge it šI'm never sure how I feel about that plot point in the web series bc it's interesting but also sort of misleading... like you said, irl we have absolutely no idea if there's anything like that on Titan š and it's likely not...
And Oh,, no, Earth is gone - Iris took him, Earth is nowhere near during this convo, but you'll see what I mean by that in the next chapter LOL
And yeah, a little shorter than usual (still about 4.5k tho) but I just wanted to get this chapter out, I'm very tired š
#axtumn's asks#this one is a STRUGGLE to get motivation for bc while i genuinely love this fic and daydreaming about it#i run on validation... like literally /srs#my ADHD means that I need extrinsic motivation to do anything oof#and this fic is a little less commented on than my others (or at least they take a while to all crop up)#so motivation is... scarce#but comments on the fic and asks like yours make it a lot easier to motivate myself to work on it <33#so really thank uu <33#i feel like im fishing for compliments here š im sorry just wanted to explain why this one might take a little longer to update than#the other fics of mine#like the vercury fic.... which i updated so often bc people commented on it like crazy š
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im being so serious besties i am not cut out for academia
#like yes i know ive had a very uniquely shit experience in doing a degree i actively not only hate but also am BAD AT#but also i just. cannot hack it#'but hella you go mental and pessimistic every single exam period' i know that but. im right also#like the other day i said to my mum how much ive just been enjoying my job recently#and how huge a deal that is bc i HATE my hometown and ive never ever considered my time here as possibly being good#and my 20s will hopefully be a lot of travelling but in between that to save easier im gonna live at home#so i dont have to worry about rent so alas that means when im saving up for my next trip I WILL BE IN MY HOMETOWN#and as excited as i am for my twenties that is one huge downside to me but i was really cheerfully saying to my mum#that literally for the first time ever ive considered it might not be too bad bc lately i have just enjoyed my job#like i enjoy the people and the work and the lifestyle of it and while it's never gonna be ideal as a means to an end it's actually good#and instead of focussing on that she went OFF on one about how she wants me to stay in education and keep getting qualifications#and she was like 'you could do an english degree you've always wanted to do english or how about open university-'#and i was just sat there blinking at her like girl.... no#like i could FEEL myself shutting down like the terror of having to return to this environment when ive got my sight so set#on that 'one more year and im done one more year and im done' mindset like that has been the only thing getting my through#is that im halfway through the course now so im closer to the other end than i am the beginning and if i can just push through#ill be free from it for the rest of my life. so the thought of immediately returning to academia even for a subject i adore? i felt ILL#and my mum apologised the next day without me even having to say anything bc she realised she kinda bulldozed me there#but i just know whether it's the adhd or ive actually been traumatised by this econ degree#(<- and im being serious there like ik 'traumatised' is a big loaded word but idk what else to use#and this degree has done so so much damage to me like it has convinced me that i am fundamentally a stupid person#to the point i refuse to add up bills when with friends or do answer any sort of intellectual question even if i KNOW i know the answer#bc ive just gone so so long of being bad at the only subject im studying like just SURROUNDED by it and being bad at it relentlessly#and i dont think people realise how damaging it is to very simply just... feel stupid all the time. but oh my god i used to be so confident#and bright and now i wont even do basic addition in front of people)#i really truly dont think i can do this again in any capacity. like the constant exams and studying and assignments#i just cant do it. maybe i just need a year or two away from it after this degree but my goddddd rn i cant see it#yes it's exam time for me can u tell. it always makes me existential and on the verge of vomiting at any given moment#i hate it here i hate it here i hate it here i dont care about iterated deletion of strictly dominated strategies shut the fuck up#hella goes to uni
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I knitted a lot today while listening to the heart of darkness audiobook. but this means I have not had a lot of leisure time and time alone... time to p3r
#heart of darkness... sorry to say it but kinda mid#it commits one of the cardinal sins imo that a book can commit:#nothing fucking happens like nothing happens. it's mostly vibes based.#giovanni's room was like this too it's so annoying#maybe I'm too gen z adhd low attention span pilled but like. NOTHING. HAPPENS.#and I mean beside the frame story that serves as the conceit of it#i.e. nothing's happening and the characters are just sitting listening to this guy reminisce#I mean even beyond that. tell me what happens. he goes to africa. he keeps meeting these colonial officers and secretaries and whatever#he finds out his boat got fucked up. he spends like half a chapter working on fixing his boat and complaining that there's no parts for it#he takes the boat to find the guy. he finds the guy. guy tries to escape off the boat. he drags him back. you think something interesting#might happen because he's like oh I might just kill this fucker. HE DOESN'T. he takes the guy back on the boat. Oh before that he meets the#guy that's weirdly obsessed with this other guy. and also the boat gets shot at with arrows. guy dies on the boat and leaves main character#his shit. main character doesn't give his shit away to people who hate him. main character goes to visit the guy's love interest#lies to her about guy's last words. that's it.#LITERALLY NOTHING HAPPENS#mid book#but I read it and I will slay at the seminar because I'm convinced very few if any of my colleagues will have read it
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Man,, when I get a therapist we're gonna have So Much to talk about š©š
#q rambles at 2#i should probably talk to people about this stuff#but it's because of the stuff that i struggle to talk about it lol#the stuff being my 99% likelihood of having anxiety and adhd#also my childhood maybe being shittier than i often assume it is#but hey cant talk about it here#hope i get a therapist soon but#probably not until next year at least#might never end up getting one at the rate im going#just gonna sit in my cardboard box with the exit open ever so slightly#just enough to see light but not enough to leave#vent#i guess#it's 2am what do i expect#on a complete tangent im working on a tpodg funny so hopefully i'll forget about all this for at least one more day šš#oh yea i forgot to add my gender dysphoria but like#other than a handful of people no one irl knows about that#especially not my parents which is probably a Bad Thing
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the thing about social interaction is that it is an essential skill that i never learnt and whatever of it existed was only grievously impaired during the pandemic so i'm trying to learn it by aggressively throwing myself into social situations even though it is difficult. surely something will stick
#having connections is so important#which is why i'm grabbing every opportunity to make new connections by the throat even if it scares my so so so much#chanting 'we must not romanticise ease we can do difficult things' as i scream cry and try to teach myself something basic#i have discovered in this process that i try too hard to make myself palatable and ultimately give others nothing to work with#that's probably the adhd. i can't strike a balance bw masking enough to not be ridiculed but not so much as to seem completely distant#but worrying about that is step 2. step 1 is just interacting with people at any cost#in less scary news i am trying to figure out stuff i like instead of just going along with stuff people around me have always told me i like#shit although maybe that's more scary now that i think about it...#i might have to.. open up... and talk about all this stuff... to all these people i'm trying to make connections with... Oh God#bwaaaaaaaaaaaa this self improvement shit is difficult and terrifying they should do classes on how to be a person
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low key wanna like
set up a queue for posts i like that donāt circulate anymore so that way the recirculate but also i donāt spam but like
i donāt think iāve ever used a queue before tbh lol
#listen iāve always been the kind of blogger where you just know what iām about when iām about it#but since this is more of a fandom sidespace than my actual blog maybe thatās the better route?#cause thereās a lot of really good fanart and fanfics and analytical pieces that just#donāt get as much love since they got burried by time and i wanna bring them back to the forefront becuase theyāre GOOD#and people put their heart and soul and time into them and i want them to be appreciated becuase i love them and they make me happy#but also iāve hit post limit multiple times becuase if this blog and iām scared itāll happen again#cause i think you still hit it with the queue too#and like#i do actually use my main blog a log and the posts come from the same pool#(pro tip for new users btw if your side blogs are connected to your main account all your posts come from a pool that your account gets)#(kind of like a deck of cards that has to be distributed between all players)#ANYWAY it might be the better move for now#iāll stew on that while i try and get myself out of writers block#cause iāll need to get the first draft of peghawks2023 done this weekend if i want ot done in time for the 16th#need to figure out how to trick my brain into working#had this problem in school also#the only reason i passed is because most my teachers loved me and wanted me to succeed in spite of my executive dysfunction#and my other two teachers hated me so much (adhd kid with a pension to cause problems) that they passed me#just so they never had to see me again lmao#itās okay feelings were mutual fuck those guys#(or love those guys for the teachers that adored me)#(hope theyāre doing good)#what was i talking about#RIGHT queues and writing#yeah i should go do that okay bye for now!!!
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Quick question for the homies who have a bookshelf to display their kpop albums and/or mangas and figures, what kind of method or style do you like?
#rn everything is mostly being put up like a regular bookshelf for the mangas and books and the albums are kinda going horizontal & vertical#itās mostly dependant on the size of the albums or the actual shelf part cuz I got the billy bookcase so itās not all evenly spaced apart#the very top is big enough to fit my largest albums & lightstick and I was thinking of maybe realigning it once I got the short bookcase#tho that might have to wait a bit until I spontaneously rearrange my room after the new year starts#and maybe clean out my closet and put the few things in my wardrobe in there so I could dismantle it and put it in storage#cuz honestly living with 2 closet spaces since 2016/2017 for 1 room that wasnāt being shared between me and my sister is not the best idea#my dad had at the time cuz that closet is pretty much the section for work clothes now šš#and the closet only has maybe 25% space used on the hanger since I did put some of the other clothes away in a fabric storage thingy#which is where I mostly stuck the pants/shorts/skirts I couldnāt hang up#but yeah back to the book case cuz now that Iām 23 I wanna commit to my idea of expanding the virgin corner into the virgin wall lmao#maybe ask my dad if we could hook up the extra tv we have once the vision came to be#so yeah dk yāall have a certain way of displaying especially if you have an album or book cover you really liked?#or how you also might place some figures and acrylics cuz I just feel like idk what Iām doing even if I do look at other peopleās set up#or even shelf arrangement cuz my friend said it was an adhd nightmare to find something when she needed to look for something#and it was on my shelf just two levels down from her eye level from where she satš
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Holmes also canonically played the violin, which...look do you know how many ADHD people have at least tried to learn that? Because it's a really weirdly high number. One of my more popular posts was about the time I ADHD impulse bought a violin and a friend, also with ADHD relayed that they did the same. And boy oh boy were the notes full of people with ADHD talking about impulse purchasing musical instruments...mainly violins.
Like, the violin isn't a symptom of ADHD but it sure seems popular with it.
ālol Arthur Conan Doyle clearly didnāt know anything about drugs. Sherlock Holmes did cocaine but it calmed him down. Thatās not how cocaine works!ā
There are two options: Arthur Conan Doyle had never met someone addicted to cocaine or he met some with ADHD who was addicted to cocaine
#ADHD#actually adhd#I mind there was a post a while back about Holmes - bearing in mind I've never actually read a Sherlock Holmes book#that was talking about how the character is written and their internal perspective and shit and I was just like ''oh''#because it all seemed *really* ADHD#and with what the last commenter said yeah ok it's possible Doyle may have had it I guess#interestingly it might also go hand in hand with his attitude towards cocaine#because cocaine isn't a great one for it but it *can* treat some aspects of ADHD as it's a dopmaninergic stimulant#it just isn't specific enough in the regions of the brain it targets to be much use#but also because of how it works people with ADHD often just...don't find cocaine as enjoyable as other people#like it's a stimulant and may focus you but the intense euphoria that makes a lot of people mad for it is missing or diminished#so while other doctors are getting themselves and everyone else blasted on it back in that day and having a whale of a time#if ACD had an ADHD brain he might have experienced it as ''well it clarifies things but I really can take it or leave it''#while noticing how much it fucks people up#same thing as how NT people taking ADHD meds can get high and it really makes them weird but for us it makes us more *normal*#it's one of the things with the whole addiction potential issues with it: they don't really apply to people with ADHD#what for other brains would be an addictive set of reactions to us is just like bringing us up to baseline brain reward levels
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How I learned to write smarter, not harder
(aka, how to write when you're hella ADHD lol)
A reader commented on my current long fic asking how I write so well. I replied with an essay of my honestly pretty non-standard writing advice (that they probably didn't actually want lol) Now I'm gonna share it with you guys and hopefully there's a few of you out there who will benefit from my past mistakes and find some useful advice in here. XD Since I started doing this stuff, which are all pretty easy changes to absorb into your process if you want to try them, I now almost never get writer's block.
The text of the original reply is indented, and I've added some additional commentary to expand upon and clarify some of the concepts.
As for writing well, I usually attribute it to the fact that I spent roughly four years in my late teens/early 20s writing text roleplay with a friend for hours every single day. Aside from the constant practice that provided, having a live audience immediately reacting to everything I wrote made me think a lot about how to make as many sentences as possible have maximum impact so that I could get that kind of fun reaction. (Which is another reason why comments like yours are so valuable to fanfic writers! <3) The other factors that have improved my writing are thus: 1. Writing nonlinearly. I used to write a whole story in order, from the first sentence onward. If there was a part I was excited to write, I slogged through everything to get there, thinking that it would be my reward once I finished everything that led up to that. It never worked. XD It was miserable. By the time I got to the part I wanted to write, I had beaten the scene to death in my head imagining all the ways I could write it, and it a) no longer interested me and b) could not live up to my expectations because I couldn't remember all my ideas I'd had for writing it. The scene came out mediocre and so did everything leading up to it. Since then, I learned through working on VN writing (I co-own a game studio and we have some visual novels that I write for) that I don't have to write linearly. If I'm inspired to write a scene, I just write it immediately. It usually comes out pretty good even in a first draft! But then I also have it for if I get more ideas for that scene later, and I can just edit them in. The scenes come out MUCH stronger because of this. And you know what else I discovered? Those scenes I slogged through before weren't scenes I had no inspiration for, I just didn't have any inspiration for them in that moment! I can't tell you how many times there was a scene I had no interest in writing, and then a week later I'd get struck by the perfect inspiration for it! Those are scenes I would have done a very mediocre job on, and now they can be some of the most powerful scenes because I gave them time to marinate. Inspiration isn't always linear, so writing doesn't have to be either!
Some people are the type that joyfully write linearly. I have a friend like this--she picks up the characters and just continues playing out the next scene. Her story progresses through the entire day-by-day lives of the characters; it never timeskips more than a few hours. She started writing and posting just eight months ago, she's about an eighth of the way through her planned fic timeline, and the content she has so far posted to AO3 for it is already 450,000 words long. But most of us are normal humans. We're not, for the most part, wired to create linearly. We consume linearly, we experience linearly, so we assume we must also create linearly. But actually, a lot of us really suffer from trying to force ourselves to create this way, and we might not even realize it. If you're the kind of person who thinks you need to carrot-on-a-stick yourself into writing by saving the fun part for when you finally write everything that happens before it: Stop. You're probably not a linear writer. You're making yourself suffer for no reason and your writing is probably suffering for it. At least give nonlinear writing a try before you assume you can't write if you're not baiting or forcing yourself into it!! Remember: Writing is fun. You do this because it's fun, because it's your hobby. If you're miserable 80% of the time you're doing it, you're probably doing it wrong!
2. Rereading my own work. I used to hate reading my own work. I wouldn't even edit it usually. I would write it and slap it online and try not to look at it again. XD Writing nonlinearly forced me to start rereading because I needed to make sure scenes connected together naturally and it also made it easier to get into the headspace of the story to keep writing and fill in the blanks and get new inspiration. Doing this built the editing process into my writing process--I would read a scene to get back in the headspace, dislike what I had written, and just clean it up on the fly. I still never ever sit down to 'edit' my work. I just reread it to prep for writing and it ends up editing itself. Many many scenes in this fic I have read probably a dozen times or more! (And now, I can actually reread my own work for enjoyment!) Another thing I found from doing this that it became easy to see patterns and themes in my work and strengthen them. Foreshadowing became easy. Setting up for jokes or plot points became easy. I didn't have to plan out my story in advance or write an outline, because the scenes themselves because a sort of living outline on their own. (Yes, despite all the foreshadowing and recurring thematic elements and secret hidden meanings sprinkled throughout this story, it actually never had an outline or a plan for any of that. It's all a natural byproduct of writing nonlinearly and rereading.)
Unpopular writing opinion time: You don't need to make a detailed outline.
Some people thrive on having an outline and planning out every detail before they sit down to write. But I know for a lot of us, we don't know how to write an outline or how to use it once we've written it. The idea of making one is daunting, and the advice that it's the only way to write or beat writer's block is demoralizing. So let me explain how I approach "outlining" which isn't really outlining at all.
I write in a Notion table, where every scene is a separate table entry and the scene is written in the page inside that entry. I do this because it makes writing nonlinearly VASTLY more intuitive and straightforward than writing in a single document. (If you're familiar with Notion, this probably makes perfect sense to you. If you're not, imagine something a little like a more contained Google Sheets, but every row has a title cell that opens into a unique Google Doc when you click on it. And it's not as slow and clunky as the Google suite lol) (Edit from the future: I answered an ask with more explanation on how I use Notion for non-linear writing here.) When I sit down to begin a new fic idea, I make a quick entry in the table for every scene I already know I'll want or need, with the entries titled with a couple words or a sentence that describes what will be in that scene so I'll remember it later. Basically, it's the most absolute bare-bones skeleton of what I vaguely know will probably happen in the story.
Then I start writing, wherever I want in the list. As I write, ideas for new scenes and new connections and themes will emerge over time, and I'll just slot them in between the original entries wherever they naturally fit, rearranging as necessary, so that I won't forget about them later when I'm ready to write them. As an example, my current long fic started with a list of roughly 35 scenes that I knew I wanted or needed, for a fic that will probably be around 100k words (which I didn't know at the time haha). As of this writing, it has expanded to 129 scenes. And since I write them directly in the page entries for the table, the fic is actually its own outline, without any additional effort on my part. As I said in the comment reply--a living outline!
This also made it easier to let go of the notion that I had to write something exactly right the first time. (People always say you should do this, but how many of us do? It's harder than it sounds! I didn't want to commit to editing later! I didn't want to reread my work! XD) I know I'm going to edit it naturally anyway, so I can feel okay giving myself permission to just write it approximately right and I can fix it later. And what I found from that was that sometimes what I believed was kind of meh when I wrote it was actually totally fine when I read it later! Sometimes the internal critic is actually wrong. 3. Marinating in the headspace of the story. For the first two months I worked on [fic], I did not consume any media other than [fandom the fic is in]. I didn't watch, read, or play anything else. Not even mobile games. (And there wasn't really much fan content for [fandom] to consume either. Still isn't, really. XD) This basically forced me to treat writing my story as my only source of entertainment, and kept me from getting distracted or inspired to write other ideas and abandon this one.
As an aside, I don't think this is a necessary step for writing, but if you really want to be productive in a short burst, I do highly recommend going on a media consumption hiatus. Not forever, obviously! Consuming media is a valuable tool for new inspiration, and reading other's work (both good and bad, as long as you think critically to identify the differences!) is an invaluable resource for improving your writing.
When I write, I usually lay down, close my eyes, and play the scene I'm interested in writing in my head. I even take a ten-minute nap now and then during this process. (I find being in a state of partial drowsiness, but not outright sleepiness, makes writing easier and better. Sleep helps the brain process and make connections!) Then I roll over to the laptop next to me and type up whatever I felt like worked for the scene. This may mean I write half a sentence at a time between intervals of closed-eye-time XD
People always say if you're stuck, you need to outline.
What they actually mean by that (whether they realize it or not) is that if you're stuck, you need to brainstorm. You need to marinate. You don't need to plan what you're doing, you just need to give yourself time to think about it!
What's another framing for brainstorming for your fic? Fantasizing about it! Planning is work, but fantasizing isn't.
You're already fantasizing about it, right? That's why you're writing it. Just direct that effort toward the scenes you're trying to write next! Close your eyes, lay back, and fantasize what the characters do and how they react.
And then quickly note down your inspirations so you don't forget, haha.
And if a scene is so boring to you that even fantasizing about it sucks--it's probably a bad scene.
If it's boring to write, it's going to be boring to read. Ask yourself why you wanted that scene. Is it even necessary? Can you cut it? Can you replace it with a different scene that serves the same purpose but approaches the problem from a different angle? If you can't remove the troublesome scene, what can you change about it that would make it interesting or exciting for you to write?
And I can't write sitting up to save my damn life. It's like my brain just stops working if I have to sit in a chair and stare at a computer screen. I need to be able to lie down, even if I don't use it! Talking walks and swinging in a hammock are also fantastic places to get scene ideas worked out, because the rhythmic motion also helps our brain process. It's just a little harder to work on a laptop in those scenarios. XD
In conclusion: Writing nonlinearly is an amazing tool for kicking writer's block to the curb. There's almost always some scene you'll want to write. If there isn't, you need to re-read or marinate.
Or you need to use the bathroom, eat something, or sleep. XD Seriously, if you're that stuck, assess your current physical condition. You might just be unable to focus because you're uncomfortable and you haven't realized it yet.
Anyway! I hope that was helpful, or at least interesting! XD Sorry again for the text wall. (I think this is the longest comment reply I've ever written!)
And same to you guys on tumblr--I hope this was helpful or at least interesting. XD Reblogs appreciated if so! (Maybe it'll help someone else!)
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I have to be up for work in 3 hours and I'm gonna be real I think ive hit the point where I might not be getting any sleep at all. for fucks sake.
#ive survived all nighters before ill scrape through the day itll just be Rough. at least i dont have much in my schedule#im not gonna take the dose this morning bc i think thats a really bad idea to do on zero hours sleep#and i can't risk two consecutive all nighters. like I have done that before but not while working full time š its not worth it#drafting an email to my doctor to let her know im skipping day 2 + ask advice re. whether its worth resuming again on day 3#bc she did list 'trouble sleeping' as a common symptom that often passes but i need to know a) how long it usually takes to pass and-#b) if this is unusually bad + would she rec supplementing with a sleep aid or just switching tack entirely and trialling a non stimulant#by this stage of the night i dont think its actually acting anymore bc i took it at 7am and its now 3am. it shouldnt last that long#i think its more just triggered my preexisting insomnia. my ability to sleep is very very sensitive sometimes + hates routine changes#just so fucking frustrating bc ive spent the past 2 months nailing my sleep routine + ive had a couple weeks of being able to-#go to bed like 9:30-10 and it only takes an hour to get to sleep and i get usually a good 7 hours sometimes 8 only waking once halfway#and i dont feel like utter shit like yeah im tired but from work not so much lack of sleep.... and now thats all fucked lmao#whatever. maybe i should just take the next dose anyway#ill see. gonna try to sleep for another 2 hours but once it hits 5 im not doing this anymore ive been trying for six hours already man#i cant even remember when i last pulled a full all nighter. it might be longer than 6 months ago... i was doing so well :-(#im so mad i was so hopeful it would have SOME good effect like ik its not a miracle worker + these things take time but so many people-#seem to have an immediate positive response even if its probably a placebo. and i got fuck all except This.#i was searching on the reddit for sleep issues and other ppl only seem to report bad ones on higher doses or years in..#like damn. do i even have adhd then. ik thats a stupid thing to think bc obvs everyones body metabolises meds differently etc but still#it is ALMOST HALF 3 and i am FUCKING TIRED#UGH. alright bedtime round 189447383#.diaries#.vent
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this explanation sucks so badly it makes me so mad i had to rant in the tags. if you dont care dont open them lmao its long
#sorry to both op and the person im rbing this from for this rant#but while i appreciate this guy sharing his experience that is one of the worst fucking ways he couldve explained it#this analogy sucks its so god damned infantilizing#theres no fucking monkey. an NTs brain works the same way: you want go to what makes you feel good#and you want to stay away from what makes you feel bad#but see. my brain#among many other things#doesnt produce the same levels of certain neurotransmitters as NTs#the explanation is that fucking simple#my brain is s t a r v e d for say. dopamine for example#so in a situation where an NT might feel slightly uncomfortable i will feel something i can only describe as psychological pain#so you can see how making those impulsive short term gain choices becomes far more appealing because it gets rid of the immediate pain#and generating motivation to do something that isnt immediately gratifying becomes harder#because it seems like it will hurt so much more until its done#(it doesnt always but thats not the point)#on top of that the reward center of my brain is just fucking broken!!! so when i do the hard thing!!#i dont get NEARLY the same level of physiological reward!! which makes doing the hard thing even LESS appealing!!!#and thats only the tip of the iceberg!!! im not even a doctor!! i am not a professional!! i dont fully understand how deep this shit goes!!#but like. jesus#i just hate hate hate hate the way adhd gets treated like this#it but it fills me with white hot rage#why do you think people with adhd are more prone to both substance and behavioural problems like gambling?? is it the brain monkey???#fucking hell. youre talking about a legitimate disability that effects our entire fucking lives#just think about it for a second. think for a SECOND about the implications of this metaphor#and all the metaphors just like it that have been thrown around that make adhd look like a fucking joke#and then shut up
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